broken

so i was recently reading a blog on here posted by a friend and it talked about what God was doing in his life, so i thought i would do the same. These past few weeks i was feeling so empty and just like God had completely deserted me.

school had started back (which was depressing enough to make anyone feel bad) and i was really bummed out about going back to school because to be honest with you its not my favotite thing to do. Shortly after school started back i realized how quickly life can change, how fast something can go from being great to being just plain awful. It felt like everything was just changing so fast and everything that happned this summer all the great change that had happened in my life was just drained from me and i felt so empty and broken. I was just wondering what good could possibly come from this brokeness and emptiness. It took me a while to realize that it was God telling me to just let go and let him have all of me not just the parts that i want to give to Him because i just wanted to be selfish and keep some things that i was ashamed of from him and try to deal with it myselft instead of giving it over to him and now that i have given those situations over to Him it has been such a burden lifted off of me. It was this past sunday in church that we were talking about the decisions that we make and is it truly what God wants us to do or is just our own selfishness that makes most of our decisions, even in the little things. Do we pray about it or just go along and not even acknowledge what God wants us to do. Do we think about the opportunities that just pass us by because we were selfish and didnt think about what God wants. I’ve come to realize that not acknowledging God just makes the problem worse or not giving it over to Him also.

~ by shaybenthall on September 2, 2008.