The new J-O-B

So this past friday i started my new job at the swamp fox regal cinemas theater. I really like the people i work with. They are all so nice and helpful. I realized this weekend why God has given me the opportunity to have this job. These people don’t know Jesus like I do. It is my j0b to show Christ to my fellow co-workers. God has opened up this huge door for me. This is a huge opportunity to share the love of Christ with others. I’m not gonna lie its really hard to live like Christ when noone around you is, but im called to a higher standard. Not that i think im better than anyone else, because i’m far from it. Its just that i know Jesus, and He said it Himself, He said “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Spirit  (Matthew 28:19). That doesn’t mean i sit back and watch others do my job. Jesus commands us to “Go ye therefore” not sit back and watch others “Go ye therefore”.  Now i’m not perfect and I sit and watch others “Go ye therefore” all the time. But those that are going and doing can’t go and do what im supposed to. Nobody can fulfill another persons calling from Christ. I can’t do what my best friend is supposed to do, nor can she do what i’m supposed to. I’m Glad Christ has given me this opportunity to share Him with others.

go gamecocks go!

I just want to take a second to express to you my love for the University of South Carolina.  I love carolina!!! I guess you could say its in my blood. oh yeah and i HATE clemson. i mean really could you choose any more ugly colors than purple and orange. and did i mention the fact that they suck. so to all you carolina fans…GO GAMECOCKS!!!!

this week…

So i don’t really know where to start…its kind of been one of those weeks thats been crazy, one of those that beats you from the start. But even though its been a very crazy week. God has yet again showed me just how big He is. It’s hard to be thankful when things are going the complete opposite way of the way I intend for them to go. When I start doubting God He has this way of showing me just how big He is. He gives me this hope, this feeling that whatever happens will be whats best for me, even though, it might not be what i want. See, my God is so big. But He isn’t too big, He isn’t so big that i can’t come to Him, but He’s so big he can handle whatever it is that I bring to His feet.  I’ve never known a more comforting feeling than this. And its so undeserved, because i screw up more often than anyone on this earth right now could cover, but whats even cooler is that Jesus already covered it with His blood. Romans 5:8 says this: But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

    While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. How awesome is that! I mean if it weren’t for Christ’s crusifiction i would be doomed forever, but yet God loved me so much that he sent His son to die on a cross so that I might be saved. but yet I throw it in His face every day. How pathetic is that. That Christ died for me , while i don’t and never will deserve it, and I throw it in His face. Thank you Lord for your mercy and your grace. Thank you for your unfailing love.

In the words of George Michael….You gotta have faith

so i think often times I completely underestimate the power of prayer. I say my sweet little prayer and then just go on with my day. WRONG. definately not how it should be. In the past week i have gotten to witness the power of prayer. i have known a girl, who was in critical condition and who was hanging on to her life, start to communicate with people and is in the healing process. and i think often time people get this whole prayer thing mixed up. I think at least I often times think that a prayer has to be this wonderful speach but IT DOESN’T! God doesn’t want our pretty words he wants our hearts and all of it Matthew 6:7-8 says this: And when you pray do not keep babbling on like pagans for they think they will be heard for their many words. Do not be like them, your Father knows what you need before you ask Him.

I often times just say my sweet little prayer and think nothing of it. Have I come to just expect nothing from God anymore? I don’t understand how I could, how I could doubt the God that created this earth, and the heavens, and the trees, and water, and you, and me. how could I ever doubt that. the sad truth is i often times find myself doing that very same thing. whenever we doubt we are just sinking ourselves further and further down. so i’ve learned in this past week that I HAVE to have faith in God, otherwise i will just end up sinking.

ghetto-fabulous

so yesterday i went to the lake….santee to be exact. it was a lot of fun. i went with chelsea to a lake house of some close friends of hers. we spent the night in the unfinished bedroom. so as a part of it being unfinished, it has no door. which was funny because our door was a box spring mattress. it was ghetto fabulous and hilarious. so they have a jet ski (dramatic pause), can i just say when im older if i have a jet ski, well it would be very nice. so chelsea and i take off on the jet ski and if you have never ridden on a jet ski its quite and adventure (especially when chelsea is driving) so were riding and if you hit the waves coming off of other boats you fly like 100 feet in the air. so were riding and chelsea decides she wants to take a turn fast and (i had told her before if im going off she is coming off with me) i go flying off. well, i decided to let go of chelsea and let her stay on. so later on im driving and chelsea is on back (evil laugh). so payback for chelsea is coming hahahaha. so im driving and chelsea says “shay if im coming off your coming off with me” and so i decide to throw her off and she pulled me off with her! we both thought we flipped the jet ski. but we didn’t.it was funny. great day.

God bless

Learning

I’m learning more and more every day what it is to follow Christ. and i mean really follow Him. its hard. I’m the kind of person who likes to be involved in things.  I’ve always pictured Christ calling me to this big huge thing and just Him changing the world through me. but i’ve also learned this….i’m not ready for that. God is equipping me now for something later on. this past year i completely ignored God’s calling on my life. Playing softball may not seem like a big deal but when its what God calls me to do and I ignore that, its huge. thats exactly what i did this past year. So i was sitting today thinking and God was knocking on my heart  saying shay you need to play softball. I’ve completely wasted God’s time and mine this past year. we live in a world that is just crying out for someone like Christ and i completely missed it! The more i think about it the more frustrated i get. God blessed me with the talent to play softball and i completely wasted it. I didn’t used it to glorify Him. and thats my purpose on this earth; is to bring glory to my God. That softball field is my mission field. I can’t make up for time lost but i’m not going to dwell on the past i’m looking forward to what God has for me this year…whatever it is, its gonna be awesome.

The Great Love Story

I think that if you haven’t you need to listen to “The Great Love Story” by Jimmy Needham. Its super good!

YES

God called me into a life of missions this week. I don’t know where he is going to take me but I am so excited. where ever He is going to take me I am going to follow. God is so good.

its gonna be a while….

So i’m going to be completely honest…the other day i was sitting thinking about how nice it would be to have a boyfriend. I believe its every girls dream to have her “prince charming” and that he will make the world just wonderful. WRONG. i was feeling kind of down about it and wondering why am I not good enough why don’t i have a guy? Its funny how God does things. a few days later one of my close friends broke up with her boyfriend. I was so happy…not because she was single just because that relationship was not glorifying God (she and i had discussed this) but she broke up with him. God used this to show me how blessed i am. I am not ready for a relationship  plain and simple. I want a man whose passion for christ and following His will for his life is greater than his passion for me. I want him to be able to uplift me and direct me towards christ not tear me down and separate. I know God is preparing that man for me because He is preparing me, for him. I have chased after relationships that have not glorified God and im ashamed of it. Me being single is an absolute blessing. I can use this time that i have now to focus on strengthening my relationship with Christ and preparing myself for marriage one day. I know i’m not ready for this now, nor will i be for a long long while. I realize that the day i get married is a long ways away but i know and i am so grateful to know that my God is preparing someone for me , someone better than i could imagine, and someone that will lead our house and our family in the direction that God wants it, not the direction we want.  So if you’re single and wondering when the “right one” is gonna come, be patient, God has something in store for you that you cannot imagine. and He is preparing you just like he is preparing me.

hmmm…

so can i tell you how ready i am for summer…so ready. i’m not trying to wish my time away but im just ready for a break. a good, long break. so so so ready